About 1:30am last night I am jolted awake by a huge ruckus outside my bedroom window. We live right on the street- a main thoroughfare for college students and the head of my bed is approximately 1.5 feet from the sidewalk. There is a college student lying passed out cold outside my bedroom window, his friends hysterical, and the next thing I know my home is surrounded by fire trucks and paramedics. I peek through the blinds for a moment, then lay down and start thinking. Thinking about how lucky I am... to have the family I have- such a wonderful husband and children. A wonderful father, mother and sister who love me so much, and Andy's family who I feel like have always been mine too. And then my mind drifts to my friends here. In a few short months we will be moving and many of my best friends will be packing everything up to move all over the country, and in one case move internationally. A few have gone before us - I cherish those emails and blog updates I get from them.And those who are not moving yet will be left behind when we go.
When we entered dental school our lives drastically changed. But the circumstances surrounding this change are what is so special and unique. We are faithful members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and there happens to be a large number of dental and medical families who attend our church. Over the past 8 years I have been so lucky to be able to surround myself with friends who were going through the same challenges as me. Women who also had a husband at school who understood the loneliness, the long days, and the stress that demanding school schedules impose on a young family. Mothers who would not judge, but provide the support and love I needed when I was having difficulties with one of my children. Women who accepted me for me. Whether it was an email, a phone call or a visit- these women knew when I needed something and were always there for me. These wonderful women have had an enormous impact upon who I am as a person. They have inspired me both spiritually and creatively. They have inspired me to be a better mother, wife, and daughter. They have guided me through the woes of motherhood and held my hand when I needed it. It is special people like this who have impacted my adult life greatly, who I will be forever grateful to... and for. As the reality of graduation and moving on to the next stage of life stares me in the eyes, flaunting so many exciting changes, I also find myself wavering.
I know that there will be new friends once we move.
But I also know there are some big shoes to fill.